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life as a radiator

No pictures with this post, just feeling the need to talk about living the life called perimenopausal and how it's very unsettling at times when all of a sudden you are sure you will internally combust. I never know when a hot flash will hit or how long it will last. Some are almost painful and others are quick and barely noticeable.

The doctor says that if you practice some deep breathing during an episode that it will reduce how long it last.  I'm pretty sure she's yanking my chain and is hoping that I'll focus more on the "art" of breathing rather than focusing on the unbearable heat that is rising from within me.  What I really want her to be joking about is how long these will continue... she says I can look forward to another 8 years of this.  Yippie!  As of this post, I'm only 44!  This isn't suppose to be happening now!

I don't like the randomness of hot flashes.  I've gone 6 or 8 weeks without a single one and then all of a sudden for no apparent reason I'm wanting to climb into a freezer or douse myself with ice water.  Then I may not have another for 2 weeks or I could have them every 15 minutes for the next 5 to 10 days.

Also, I've yet to pinpoint whether these hot flashes bring on some sort of hormonal surge or if there's something else going on.  But on occasion I will be in the throws of a flash and a psychotic rage from nowhere will come over me.  My poor sister has witnessed one of these episodes.  Once the heat starts subsiding, so does the rage. The rage doesn't happen with every flash, thank goodness!

Apparently some people only experience hot flashes during the day or during the night or both.  Lucky me, I'm a "both" type person.  Middle of the day or middle of the night, my flashes don't discriminate!  The ones at 2:00 a.m. are frustrating because I wake up checking to make sure the sheets aren't ablaze while I kick out from under them, try to find the cold side of the pillow and get comfortable.  Just about the time that I do, the A/C comes on and I'm so happy to hear this lovely sound.  Sometimes the flash out lasts the cycle of the A/C and other times subsides. Regardless of which, then it's like stepping out of a shower with no towel...yep, now I'm cold and need to cover back up!

There you have it. My life as a radiator.

Thanks for reading and I'll keep you posted on how I'm cookin'... (wink)

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We should start a club.

September 13, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterDixie

Boy, do I know where you're coming from. I have now been pegged as postmenopausal.....Woopie! Have had flashes for many years now and am one of the fortunate ones, like you, where the flashes don't discriminate. Hey.....think of it this way.....when all of our friends are doing this much later in life, we will be just sitting back saying, "been there, done that"!

September 18, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterRhonda

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